For those of you who follow my blog

Last night I set my alarm for every two hours got up syringe fed three babies and made sure the others were latched on to mums and feeding well, then after a cup of tea/biscuit/chocolate I returned to my make shift bed with a baby monitor in each ear, the alarm went off again two hours later and so my night/day continues, although Im totally worn out we still have all our babies and they have all put on weight :-) Thank God. Will carry on doing what Im doing until they are all holding their own. Thank you to those of you that have sent lovely emails :-) bless you xxx

This morning when I wrote my blog couldnt really say much just too upset and heart broken, today Lily and her girls have done well and both girls are opening their eyes :-) so beautiful to see :-) made me smile. Love you babies xxx

I have been syringe feeding Lily;s baby boy since this morniing and just weighed him, he has put on weight :-) so pleased :-) he will only take 1ml each feed but any thing is better than nothing. Im going to set my alarm for every two hours through the night to feed him and check on the others. Please Please dear God dont take any more of my bengal babies and give me the strength to carry on.

I am now Syringe feeding Lilys little Silver boy who is with Ariel and Angelica, he has not put on any weight since yesterday morning :-(  please please please baby boy take your milk get strong, I just can not lose another bengal baby :-( my heart is breaking right now :-( Love my babies so much each and every one of them with all my heart xxx

Lily's babies are a week old yesterday, so much has happened in a week OMG

Lily and her two girls are doing well at the mo and her little boy who is with Auntiie Ariel.

Thats all I can wright right now, sorry xxx

After my awful day yesterday and this whole week really, I spent yesterday evening and through the  night getting Ariels smallest baby to suckle she is now doing really well and has gain almost 20g in 24 hours :-) will keep an eye on her, I went to bed at  half past midnught got up at 3am to check on babies and attach little ones to nipples, I noticed Angelica's little girl was a little weak and didnt want to suckle I gave her some KittyStim (glucose) I put her with mum in the hope she would suckle well, now its 4 am . I then had two hours light sleep, I checked on babies again at 6.03 am was scared to look as I am now every time I enter the room, I looked great all babies are fine, knelt down to give mums their breakfast and Angelica's little one looked very weak and lifeless picked her up, still warm, ohhhhh nooooo baby girl :-(  gone just gone I was too late, I sat and cradled her crying, sobbing, why why why please come back baby girl dont go ................

My heart is broken right now

I dont understand, we have now lost 5 babies why??? Want to know why??? Room too hot?? Room too cold?? Why// Why?? Why?? 

This has happened to other breeder friends but never us before, and it hurts like Hell :-(

Play safe baby girl, im so sorry couldnt save you, your life was so short, but you was loved and so precious so beautiful so perfect, love you always love me your dedicated breeder Julie xxx

Yesterday Tuesday 31st Jan I had to rush one of Lily's babies to the vet as she over grommed him and bit his head :-( he has been given antibiotics vet thinks he will be ok I have now put him in with Ariel and Angelica as Lily wanted to lick the wound. Now Lily is left with her silver girl and brown girl, poor Lily, poor baby and poor me :-(  Whatever next!!!